Commencement
first
I had to wait in line
for my new license plate sticker
I think they had
the slowest person they could find
doing the job and
the woman in front of me
turned and said
if people have their checks ready
when they get up there
it shouldn’t take very long
then before it was my turn
they opened another line up and
before I knew it
I was back in the car
I didn’t know
if I was ready to go home
or if I wanted to go somewhere else
for some reason
I decided to go to the mall
because
I guess
I wanted to go some place
where I could walk around for awhile
it was another one of those days
where nothing felt right and
I kept walking past all the stores
wondering what I might find
but not expecting much of anything
I kept watching all those young faces
most of them probably
more than half my age
but I was convinced
they all knew more than me
I was in my 40s
but it didn’t feel like it
everyone had such rich fulfilling lives
and
I was still waiting for mine to begin
The Night I Broke My Foot
I never broke any bones
until I was almost 30 years old
back when I was working
the night shift at Big-Mart
the old one
before they built the super one
over on the other side of town
I unloaded trucks and stocked shelves
from nine at night
until five in the morning
my buddy Todd and me
and another guy got to come in
an hour before the rest of the shift
so we could clear out the back and
have it all ready to go
by the time the others arrived
out on the floor I worked
mostly in the household chemicals area
you know
where you’ve got toilet bowl cleaner
and
laundry detergent and
cans of air freshener to make
your bathroom smell good and
all those kinds of things and
I was out there trying to find room for
a second box of furniture polish
when Lonnie came out of the back
pulling this big pallet of detergent
these huge boxes of Tide
for some special sale that was coming
up
he looked like he was having trouble with
it
so I ran over to give him a push
but one of the boxes fell off the back
and landed on my foot
these were 20 pound boxes
or something close to that
of powdered laundry detergent and
it fell from about four feet and
when it struck me it hurt
but I didn’t think it was that bad
but when I put my weight on it
I almost passed out from the pain
I had to sit down on the floor
taking off my shoe and sock
seeing the bruise starting to form
I remember Lonnie told me to
get on the pallet jack and
he took me up to the front of the store
because
that’s where the manager was
sitting in the snack bar
wearing a red tie and
a bright yellow dress shirt
he was probably drinking coffee
trying to keep himself awake
when we told him what happened
he looked like he didn’t know
what he should do and
he kept asking us a bunch of questions
like he was trying to figure out
how he could make it our fault
and I don’t think
he believed my foot was broken
because
he kept asking me how it felt and
just nodded his head
when I told him
I couldn’t put any weight on it
but when Lonnie told him
it sounded just like the time
he had broken his leg
the manager finally relented and
told me to go to the hospital
and have it checked out
he gave me a form and told me
to have a drug test done while I was
there
I guess just to make sure
Todd got to drive me to the hospital
because
I’d rode with him to work
we were in the emergency room
for three or four hours and
when we got back to the store
I showed the manager my papers
and the pair of aluminum crutches
they had given to me
I had two broken bones in my left foot
but he still acted funny about it
I guess he didn’t think
that a box of detergent
no matter how big they were
was enough to do something like that
I had to sit in the snack bar
until it was time to go home
writing down as well as I could
exactly what had happened
on our way home
Todd and I had to stop and
get my prescription filled
it was for some pain killers and
I thought it was funny
because
Big-Mart had a pharmacy
but it wasn’t open 24 hours
later on that day I had to
come back to see the doctor and
he put a cast on my foot
a blue one made of nylon and
I got to stay home for the next four
weeks
using my crutches to get around
while drawing workman’s comp
but don’t get me started
about workman’s comp
because
that’s a whole other story
We’ve Got One Bar In This Town
we’ve got one bar in this town
where the funeral home used to be
and when the bar first opened up
it was called the Last Stop
but it goes by a different name now
and we don’t have a funeral home
anymore
if you die here they just drive your
body
over to one of the nearby towns
and if you want to be buried
in one of our local cemeteries
after your funeral service is over
they’ll drive you back again
around here we have two cemeteries
one north of town and
the other one when you head south
my family’s buried in the south one
at least the members of my family
who are buried around here
some of them are buried in other places
and some of them
I don’t know where they are
but I was talking about the bar
it has one pool table
and a couple of pinball machines
and I think they serve food
most nights until nine o’clock
but you can get pizzas right up until they
close
and I’ve been there a few times
but I never go there to eat
I just go there
because
I want to get drunk on
another lonely Saturday night
and I always see the same guy
he’s there no matter when I go
asking someone to buy him a beer
and he’s not really anybody’s friend
but everybody knows his name
They’re Both Dead Now
they’re both dead now
the old couple that lived
up the street from us
when I was just a boy
and she was always baking
some kind of cake or cookies
and when she pulled them from the oven
she’d let you eat some of them
while they were still warm
with a big glass of cold milk
and he’d sit out on their porch
holding his pipe between his teeth
and I remember
watching how the smoke
curled around his face
I think his name was George
and her name was Stella
I don’t think they ever owned a TV
but they always had a radio going
with the volume turned up so loud
you could hear it from the street
and he always called her Sweetie
and she always called him Mr. Green
I don’t think they had any children
and I remember
they had this deck of playing cards
they kept in the living room
that were much larger than
any normal-sized deck
but I never saw them using the cards
so I can’t tell you what kind of games they
played
Dogs
I’m thinking about
someone beautiful
tonight
someone living in another town
who doesn’t love me anymore
and this happens to me
all the time
I sit around
thinking too much
dredging up the past
when I know
I should just let it go
and the dogs start barking
from somewhere down the street
I guess
they’ve found something
lurking in the dark
or maybe they’re just cold
and have been outside long enough
and now they’re ready to go
back into the house